for me, for thee
Mar. 4th, 2024 09:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wordswithI've learned to be alone. Or at least that's what I've told myself. I turn to books, music, movies, and TV shows. I swipe endlessly through Instagram reels and YouTube shorts, and I sit through sometimes hours long videos of people talking online about. Well, anything. I once watched a three hour video about internet plagiarism, and the people I learned about will probably be in my mental lexicon for the next year (or more depending on whether James Somerton finally decides to stfu). Same thing, right? I know how to be alone. Everyone does when there are enough distractions. With a computer in our hands or in reach at all times, it isn't hard.
It's certainly easier than actually being around people, but it's a poor substitute.
Anyway, the point is, when I'm alone, in reaching for art, I reach for connection. In writing, in art, I connect.
This corner of the internet may never be visited by anyone but the me from the future; a "me" who's different to the "me" who wrote it, who's had more life to live, and more experience and wisdom as a result. She might think differently than the "me" who exists right now. I hope she does. I hope she has something new to say, or a different way to say it. I hope she'll share it with the different versions of "me" that come after. A constant call and response, a conversation that never ends. A connection I'll always have.
It's certainly easier than actually being around people, but it's a poor substitute.
Anyway, the point is, when I'm alone, in reaching for art, I reach for connection. In writing, in art, I connect.
This corner of the internet may never be visited by anyone but the me from the future; a "me" who's different to the "me" who wrote it, who's had more life to live, and more experience and wisdom as a result. She might think differently than the "me" who exists right now. I hope she does. I hope she has something new to say, or a different way to say it. I hope she'll share it with the different versions of "me" that come after. A constant call and response, a conversation that never ends. A connection I'll always have.
